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 i wrote a song with my buddy Alex.  Its really great but not really.    I had a great time just having him up here but i just wish we could of been like the old ricky and Alex.  I want everything to go back to normal when life was easy.  We used to hang at the mall and chec the girlies out.  I miss everything about the past and i just wish we could go back.  I know everything is going to change again but im not quite sure if its for the best or not.  My buddy is pursuing someone who i have feelings for and i blessed off on it.  It hurts seeing them together but i have to learn to deal with it.  Usually I can take the high road but for some reason i cant do it this time.  Im sorry for everything i did this past weekend but i cant say i regret it.   Amanda im sorry for the way i treated u this weekend and i hope everything works out with you and Alex.  I just want you to be happy and if that means i have to suffer for it then that means i have to hurt but i will get over it someday.  Im just not ready to deal with you and him in front of me.  I can try as hard i want but im just not ready.    Im going to move on and find my robyn someday.  This birthday is going to suck balls because it another bday without bday sex.  I hate this but i just want it one time.  I gotta run to the mall and get some food and a haircut.  Love everyone and take care.

hey everyone whats up? Im in afghanistan now and im working hard. The hardest part is being away from amy and friends right now. The best part of being here is i get to go out on missions and shoot the mk19 one of the biggest guns in the military. I also get to go out and meet the local people from around the fob and get to know their background. I like some of the people and m getting to know some of their language. I have a lil over one year left in the military and i might re-enlist or i might not but im not sure. Im still not quite sure what i want to do with my life. I miss amy so much its all i ever think bout and it makes it harder that i cant see her for a whole year. I get to go on leave here but im not quite sure on dates but its sometimein july or august but i gotta run i will see ya when i get back later.

Hey everyone its me again. Im on Fort Drum chilling with best woman alive. We are waatching the abc family movie "If Only" tonight. This weekend has been the best so far just because I have been all my time with her and having a great time. I cant wait until i get back then i can start going to school and prove to everyone im not to small and i have the heart to play college football and do something with my life. Im sick of just hanging around and feeling like a failure. I hate to say it but when i joined the military i felt like a loser because i thought only losers joined the military, but now i seee it a lot different now that i have served. People in the military are hardworking and determined to stand up for whats right in the country. They also put their own lives on the line for the people of the united states. I respect the Infantry men for the job they do out on the front line and no matter what its not me everyone should look up to its those guys because they are the ones who make all the missions happen. All i do is support them with food and hydrate them. The army is built up of the combat mos's and the support mos's. The combat mos's are the ones who bust their asses out on the front line and etc. Im leaving to go overseas and i feel that im not doing my part to help the military. My dream is to play football at the highest level i can play at and contribute to the team.

PS- Amy she is the only person in the world that I believes in me and I want to succeed for her and our family to be.

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